I'm sailing, I'm sailing!

I've been thinking about Bob a lot lately. Yeah, I know, I'm married to someone else. Don't worry, Stew, I'm not thinking about Bob like that. I'm thinking about trying new things and how much FUN it can be. Of course, whenever I am doing something new, I feel the uncontrollable urge to start screaming, "I'm sailing, I'm sailing!"

Case in point, I tried yoga last week. I don't know why I've never tried yoga before but I haven't. Guess what? It is amazing. I loved it. "I'm doing yoga, I'm doing yoga!" I have caught myself a few times since my yoga classes saying things like, "let it go" or, "let it be okay". I guess the relaxation is kicking in. I left everyone at home, rode my bike to class, and truly enjoyed the first few hours of my morning. It's a great way to begin a day that promises to have many hours full of screaming children.

A few days ago, my family got those big black truck tubes and floated down the Provo River. I have done it a few times before but I think I saw a few other people in my family have "I'm sailing" moments and it was such a blast. I love watching other people have those "I'm sailing" moments almost as much as I love having them myself!

I really started thinking about this at swimming lessons today. Maddox and Hadley are both having lessons at the same time and as I was running back and forth between the two classes to check on them and make sure everything is okay, I realized that neither one of them had any fear of the water. Of course, my deaf child has no fears of anything, EVER! In the pool, that's as true as always. She's just as happy as can be. When it was time for the back stroke today, she took off across the pool like a little fish. Even her teacher was shocked at how fast that girl can swim. She may not always catch every word of the instructions since her processors are off and she's relying on lipreading skills but she does really well. Maddox is also fearless and loved every second of it but I am never sure with him. He sometimes balks at new things and is very reluctant to try something until he has watched for awhile. I was pleasantly surprised to see him hop right in and put his face in the water to blow bubbles.

When I watch my kids living...I mean, really living, I feel an ache in my heart for all of the things that I am not doing that I love to do. I am at the period in life when I just get to hold a baby most of the time. That means not too much swimming, not too much yoga or bike riding and not too much sailing. Oh well. I know this is just the period of life that I'm in and that someday, I'll miss this. (Or will I?) But...I want to sail, darn it!